Hello seems like a weird word to start with. Anyw, just suddenly feel like typing non-stop. I have so much on my mind now. Oh, I love blasting music into my ears while walking alone & just think & think & think non-stop, just like what I did this morning. Think & think & think, like really think about everything. From the past, to the present, to the future, then back to the past agn. I think I might have smiled to myself too, hope nobody noticed that thou, haha! I am suddenly feeling so scared, abt everything & anything. Maybe 's cos I used to have a partner to rely on & comfort me. But of course, I know I have lovely friends. The special ones have really been the one keeping me tgt, one whole well-being, for so long. But nothing is as comforting as having someone you care abt so much, being there for you right? This reminds me of the quote from Cous that is still stuck in my head, 'Love when you're ready, not when you're lonely.' Very true, I like it.
As for sch, it has been the usual. I was looking thru my grades for this sem & I realised that I've improved like so much. Maybe 's the fact that I am extra serious this sem, having realise how competitive everyone is. But my UTs are definitely not helping. I have nvr been great w tests & this sucks bcos' it just pulls my grades down so much. Another reason why I'm so afraid. I have no damn clue what I'm gna do after graduating. So many have been asking me the same question, can I say pressure??? This is the hard part of growing up, having to make decisions & be independent. This is so scary.
Oh wow, third paragraph alr. Actually, I'm still not done. Like I said, loads & loads & loads on my mind. This is the first time I'm just randomly chucking down whatever that's on my mind. But I guess I shld let you readers off. Besides, 's no good to pour too much out right? Don't even know who reads my blog. Y'know how scary it is, after updating my blog, the stats will just shoot sky high the day after. 's like they're psychic, know when I'm gna update. Oh yea, I'm getting so sick of this blogskin. But everytime I'm halfway thru changing, I'll look back & convince myself that this skin is still better, so I stop editing hahaha. Oh well. 'kay, really time to end this post. Madness, I see this chunk of words also sian. Wonder who will read this post, hoho. Kthxbyegnightxoxo.
