I am scared. I have always been. And I might always be. I am scared that one day, you will meet her again and everything in the past will come rushing back to you. I am scared that as time goes by, you will realize that I am not all that you wanted. I am scared because people are people and feelings fade.
But this is the happiest I have been in awhile. And though I question myself daily what good I have done to deserve all of it, I want to believe that I deserve this. I want to believe that I deserve to be happy.
And unlike pain, I hope I'll always remember what this feels like. Because it is incredible and amazing, because you are incredible and amazing. And I feel. And my heart is beating through my chest.
I am always thankful for having you with me every single day.
I get scared we might end up apart. But carpe diem, because nothing lasts forever.
If I had a flower for each time I think of you, I could walk in my garden forever. xx