Time check: 0230am
Nights like these are what I hate the most. The uncertainty, the silence, the scariness.
I want to open up but the difficulty is that, I'm afraid I'm too much for you to handle. And one day, you'd just be gone.
I need you now, every day, so badly. But I'd never admit it to your face. Because I don't wna be a needy burden.
One day and I'm already missing you so terribly much. Time will never make this easier.
I barely survived 6wks the first time, you just didn't know how pathetic I was. How am I to survive the next one?
I love you and I wish you were beside me rfn. x